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why today sucks
So, okay, now that I am done being incredibly self-pitying -- um, and done crying and threatening to punch people in the face. You guys, why do emotions suck so much? I hate emotions. They are stupid -- anyway. I'm done. I'm still HORRIBLY DISAPPOINTED AND SAD but at least the iced tea and cake is making me feel better.
I'm trying to make light of it because I really am horribly, horribly disappointed and it's easier for me to not to start...leaking if I'm being bitterly sarcastic.
So, yes, in two weeks or so -- three weeks? the weekend before Halloween, anyway -- I was supposed to go to New Orleans and hit Voodoo Fest with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
thelionforreal and see GCH and FOB with her and have wacky shenanigans and awesomeness.
But, because I a) suck at remembering dates and b) am a MASTER of repression, I totally forgot why the 28th of October was a problematic date. So, um, yeah. Instead of hanging out with Missi and having good times and watching FOB and GCH, I will be at a cemetery remembering my sister on the anniversary of her passing.
I feel sort of horrible for being so upset about this, but I was *really* looking forward to it and...maybe it is bad of me, or unfeeling or something, but I would so much rather be enjoying myself on that day and not...thinking about it than to be doing what I'll end up doing. I don't know. I'm just. This sucks so much on so many levels and I just hate it.
anyway. that was the sadhair. :(
I'm trying to make light of it because I really am horribly, horribly disappointed and it's easier for me to not to start...leaking if I'm being bitterly sarcastic.
So, yes, in two weeks or so -- three weeks? the weekend before Halloween, anyway -- I was supposed to go to New Orleans and hit Voodoo Fest with
thelionforreal and see GCH and FOB with her and have wacky shenanigans and awesomeness. But, because I a) suck at remembering dates and b) am a MASTER of repression, I totally forgot why the 28th of October was a problematic date. So, um, yeah. Instead of hanging out with Missi and having good times and watching FOB and GCH, I will be at a cemetery remembering my sister on the anniversary of her passing.
I feel sort of horrible for being so upset about this, but I was *really* looking forward to it and...maybe it is bad of me, or unfeeling or something, but I would so much rather be enjoying myself on that day and not...thinking about it than to be doing what I'll end up doing. I don't know. I'm just. This sucks so much on so many levels and I just hate it.
anyway. that was the sadhair. :(