'cause I'll forget

Wesley's fiddling with a napkin, ripping it apart and staring down at it like it holds the answers to all of life's mysteries and Gunn reaches over, puts his hand on Wesley's and pushes it down against the table. Wesley just kind of takes a sharp breath and Gunn wants to, but Wesley yanks his hand away and Gunn sits back.
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there was a sad bit, when Wesley slept with a Gunn, and he's lying there and Gunn's asleep, and Wesley's quietly begging, "Don't let me wake up."
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all he knows is that he feels guilty about sleeping with Fred, he's devoted a lot of time and effort into getting Wesley back, and now he and Wes are weirder than ever, and Wesley keeps looking at him, except when he's obviously *not*